I've been told the Vietnamese I wrote in a notebook in 2016 means something but I have no idea what that could be.

Completely agree about the need for such a word! I'm going to look into this. I'm sure some language must have created such a word.

After all, there's a word in Inuit for "the feeling of anticipation you have when you're waiting for a guest and you keep going to the window to check and see if they've arrived." (Iktsuarpok)